Confessions of a Liar

Looking, I see reminders,
Reminders of things long past,
Reminders of us.

I try to block the memories,
But it’s hard to ignore the loss of…
Such a wonderful person.

So I say I don’t care,
Because sometimes caring,
Does more harm than good.

I say I don’t care,
Because it’s the hard way out,
Disguised as the easy way out.

If I don’t care,
Then I don’t have to deal with it,
But if I don’t care, why do I feel this way?

You broke your promises,
And for that you are a liar,
But I’m also a liar for lying to myself.

I want you back,
But wanting you and not having you is worse than anything,
So I try not to want you.

But it doesn’t work,
Because my love was true love…
True love never dies, it just hides.

So I can lie to myself,
And I can lie to you too,
But I guess that it makes me no better than you.

So when I act like I don’t care,
Remember that I’m lying…
Trying to save myself from pain.