Psychological Autopsy

I'm becoming quite familiar with my pain -
Carefully, and intimately inspecting it
Observing it closely, from all angles
Learning every curve, crevice and crease
Calculating its dimensions with precision
Quantifying its characteristics with acuity and acumen
Estimating exactitudes of extremity
Analytically assessing stressors
And incessantly incising each irritation
Severing the stubborn suffering
Dissecting and disassembling disparate displeasures
Dismantling deceptive deductions decisively
Frequently re-focusing from fucking frustration
To feeling filled and flooded with futility